Pondering Panda's

Life.. *Sighs..* Life is full of changes, life is full of challenges. That's why it known to have its ups and downs as i'm sure many of you have gone through.

These days, i feel weird. Like something's not right with me. Life goes by day in day out but, i can't help but feel it in me all the time. On the outer scale, everything appears to be fine but, on the inside? Its another story. Heck, it is like a shipwreck or you could say, an approaching mass of distruction!

I feel the gnawing 'pain' growing each day. What is it? Deep down, i feel empty. That's right.. Just plain, white emotionless human. Freaky ain't it? Speaking sometimes has suddenly become task-like. A task! Can you imagine that? Its like having the saying "speak only when spoken to" come true. This is an alien thing to me. Who can i trust? Who can i see for help? It's a brain muddlle to be muddled about.

Currently, i've my mounting assignments to keep me busy. But, once its done? This alien-ish feeling comes back to haunt in full force! Loneliness has been my recent neighbour. One whom i hangout with almost daily. Its my current bestie although i'm surrounded by people and my friends. Get what i mean?

I know, it probably sounds like i'm leading a very troublesome and boring life. Maybe i am but hey, there are the good times as well. So, this isn't a complaint or anything akin to it. I repeat, NOT A COMPLAINT!! Just a place to let my soul fly.